Okay today is th release of results for N level.
Good luckk yer smue ?
hmm, on 11.12.09, i got news from farahboncett that my ex, Ramdan died.
may you rest in peace.
i guess its a hard time for his ex, dinah.
but life has to go on and yg pegyy tk akn kembali.
so doakan die je laa sesape yg knal die.
he left all on 08.12.09. overdose.
i heard he took destro,, 65 biji.
but im nt reallie sure.
hmmss.
on th day that i pataa alek, was supposed to meet arwah dan.
but then, didnt get to.
kesian.
all were left memories.
and i heard he passed his n lvl.
haish.

15.12.09, tok wak plak meninggal.
shocking news.
didnt get to visit.
haish.
smakeyh rmai org meninggal.
takot luhh.
haissshh.
bile mase aku pon idontknow.
just hrap sempat bertaobat.

okay laa, want to siap.siap.
byee smue.

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at1:10:00 PM

its been so long since ive updated.
HUAKKKK!
hhaaa.
waiting fr my N lvl result.
takk sabaa rasenyerhh.
haiyaaayoo.
hmmss.
boringg uhh, nak kluaa.
rindu rmai org.
haish.haish.
so ku menanti dan ttap terus menantyy.
smue pn tgu akuu jer laa yer .
hahas.

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at12:51:00 AM

okayy daa 3 hari daa. and life was like, wow. banyak bnde tejadi. aku naa hamcii nie. takot one dy im gone, tak lamer. haixx. favour uhh kasi enjoy lame skit. heh. okayy so im missing many pple lah. so sesape yg nk meet ke ape, contact ilah k. sampai laa ilah tukaa num.. hmm, kay uh smue tcr. (:

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at5:16:00 PM

24 hours is gone.
well, i feel sorry for my frens especially my mr.
cause i left her behind just like that.
so sorry syg.
i have to do this.
haish.
on top of that, i guess life has been boring.
but naseb ahh no need of waking up so early.
hahaa.
okayy sumpaa aku nak carek sesuatu yg susaaa .
hmm, okayy then.
idontknow what else to post.
i guess this will be th end.
i wont want to reveal any other personal stuffs.
psal daa ade org laaa pulakk tawu.
kayy daa daa bye.

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at1:22:00 PM

Jengjengjeng.
it's 1024 hours, cabot laa nampaknyer.
haiyoo, ape nak jadyy.
okayy bende daa jady takley wat paper agek.
kayy for now msg laa puas.puas pat hp aku.
maybe will be changing my number.
nak keep low proffy.
carek aku pat B.M kayy.
nampak anjeng.anjeng idop col taow report.
kayy tanak ckap bnyak.
kirekan skrg aku redha law apepe nak jady pat aku.
hahas. tgok ahh kayy.
kayy ahh.
suspek mcam dak2 whampoa cam daa dpat aku peyy blog.
bloghoppers pon mcam jorangg.
yelaa, sape agek kan yg daa tawu cite.
takpe laa, nampak sgat ahh yang satu side of story je KAU dgar.
fham.fham kayy, aku tawu kau tawu.
thanks arr, for not listening to my side of story.
takpe laa, ape kau heran.
aku nan kau, sape kan kite.
i should have known better.
but atleast i realised one thg that none realised.
biaa laa tependam.
hmm, maybe law blog aku makeyn rabak kan.
i guess i will private kan blog ataow pon shift to a new link.
then part tuu pepandai laa org carek aku.
tu part aku daa relek daa, tukaa num tukaa add sume.
tgok uhh camne.
kasi time uhh law daa rabak.
haha, kayy rase.rase nyer yang aku ni daa nak start alek prangai lame.
iaitu, steam.steam.steam.
ahahaa, well, klaw masey baek, baek laa.
law tak, makeyn menjady.jady.
kayy tanak blang bnyak.
so pple. pape contact pat num biase.
kayy slamat tgal.

khas buat ibu, ayah, along, alang, ammar and iman.
angaa sorry i end up this way.
i know you guys will be disappointed.
but i guess you wont understand anythg at all.
peritnye angaa sorangg je lalui.
maafkan laa aku.

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at10:20:00 PM

Okayy this will be another post that will be freaky boring. tapyy takpe laa. blog aku pe, hahaa.okayy so life has been seriously tough. today is children's day. and.and, tmr last day of scl. mcam, wow! it's so fast.i didnt realise time has been passing so fast. and when i realise, i'll be sitting for my n levels. if not ths yr will be my o level year. but then, bcos i dropped to normal stream, it will certainly be an n for me. then i guess i cant get to sec 5. and its not what i want actually. cause i cant live inside this scl. too rabakk! andthen ite will be my next stop, only if i pass i guess. if not, i guess it will be a worklife for me. only that i have to attend 6 months course before getting a work for myself. okayy so atleast i planned my next year life. i cant simply live sitting in.hse. urghhh. hahaa. okayy, still, anyone can tell me any defination of love? hahaa.

kayy this week hopefully i canget hme. pls laa. haiyaa. lagi 9 hari aku daa setaon pat situ. then tgal agek setaon uhh. tlg laa cpat kan mase aku. haishh. i have breathing difficulties nowadays. cause have been smoking badly and whats more, running to catch th train that always comes on th wrong timing! tak sukaa! hahaa. tired siao. after my stay there, i learnt to make frens that are worth to be called frens. seriously, i dont dare to mix around with many gerls. psal bnyakk gadoo. lagi.lagi pompan peyy mulot, haduuiiii! pedas! imnot saying that i dont, i do bitch about. its in th nature of gerls. but, kne betempat ahh. takan kwan sndri nak pi mengumpat psal kwan sndri pat org laen. kwan ke hape bnde tuu yer.hahaa. okayy laa.

i miss ayepp. but i want to make everythg as my bitter.sweet memories. i dont want to look at th past, but it seems that i keep looking back, hoping for a miracle to happen,hoping for sweet things that took place to repeat. and hoping that th pple that walked off from my life to come back again. i dont know. i have to seriously look ahead and move on with life. but i dont have th courage to do so. it's always th same. i suck at relationship and being a good fren. i can never be good. it's always a bad me.

okayy so this post is long and i guess i'll end here. end, imiss ayepp. sesape, tlg buat aku lupekan die boleyy ?haish.haish. when ive gotten over HIM after so long, a new one came and it starts all over again. but i believe it wont be long. cause it takes two to be one.

mengapa engkau menduakanku,
sedangkan ku masih menyayangimu.
manakah janjimu,
yang kau beri dahulu.

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at1:25:00 PM

so currently in scl. okayy ths will be a short post. aku rindukan ayepp. sumpaa aku takda bedekk. haiyaaa! nyari shaboy peyy bday. hpy bday yer. then smlm jmpe radz. hmm, went to his cribs. tgok cite ke hape tah mepek aru tgok cite suster ngesot. lpas tu gerak alekk umaa. hehes. not bad uhh, kemas je umaa. die lak angkat barang. aiyoo. ape nak jadyy. so inclusive of today, daa one wk one day we fought. monday lak nmpak die. haish.haish. felt like running away, seriously. agek.agek bler ade bnyak masalaa. haish. ths wk is my sis, nisah's bday. hrap.hrap dpat alek uhh sia. klaw tak dpat, aku nak fuck jek tuu pertaps. hahas. okayy will end here. bye sesape yg naa bace.

mengapa ini semua terjadi,
dlam percintaan kita.
manakah silap dan salahku,
di antara kita berdua.

*mengapa terjadi by katak kopet
catch it at youtube, a wonderful song.
mainly for you and me.
haish.

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at12:43:00 PM

so today was supposed to meet daughter syg .but she was busy sleeping .cam babi uhh dekni .ahaa .well ,ape boley buat .aku stress uhh .kesian aku ,asek.asek pikeran .hmm .so now ayepp nd me are still not on good terms .i just hope that he could give me th space to explain myself .entaa ahh .he listened to one side of th story without hearing mine .ayepp ayepp .sumpaa aku rindu ayepp .but then ,things are all said and done .no use if evrythg is over .cume aku akn menanti ayepp .haish.haish .

śħōяτץ- ĸέaι itu laa dirimu.

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at10:57:00 AM

20.09.09 ;th first day of raye where evryone seeks for forgiveness but i was fighting with ayep.
it's pathetic, cause he wanted to end our frenship that we built. but after much talk, we are on talking terms again.

22.09.09 ;th day where everythg was revealed ,where he hears just one side of th story without hearing mine. one sleepover can change th frenship between th both of us. i miss th old us. haish. then i realised its no use, going over things that had taken place. when nothing took place actually and was accused, i guess he still wont believe me. up to this date which is 24.09.09 ,it has been two days since our frenship has been broken off. i miss every single thing about him that can make me smile, no matter how irritating he can be at certain times. it was sweet, but it ended sour. i guess it's time that i back off from their place that leaves one million and one memories. i told daughter that i wont be coming, cause its his place. kampong die, aku stakat outsider. daughter respected my decision. so i just hope that i will be meeting daughter at wdlnds perhaps? i dont know why, it just sucks at this time. i felt like running, but i dont want to face bigger consequences that sucks big time. i just hope that we will be back together as per normal. i just lost hope for us to be in good terms. i hate it when he doesnt want to hear my story. but its okayy. we are basically nothing, not even friends. it's sad thinking back. then, i just realised tht he will be happy wth his loved ones. nd i dont want to destroy th happiness that he has now. it will take me some time to get over a new stuff again. sadly, things wont work out as per normal. so i guess this will be th end of my post. will be going back again this saturday. starting afresh now i guess.

mengapa akhirnya begini, sedangkan ku masih menyayangi.
angkara orang ketiga, kini kita telah hancur musnah.

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at1:50:00 PM

currently having my hari raya hmelve .
okayy so now naa maen comp .
its so mendak to go scl ,psal kan ,almost half or three quater yg tak dtang .
mcam siak ahh .
but nemind uhh ,tambaa kan ilmu .
chey mcam pham .
okehh so now i got mainly nothing much to say .
cause ,taa laa ehy .
aku rase yg i should cabot ?
maybe one day i will .
pnat siao mau dok situ .
pnat nak mams .
i guess soon .
if ley progress ,lincaa.lincaa laa aku kluaa siakk .
pukey tiang btol .
nabuay cibai .
hahaa .

for a serious part ,
i realised that my friends ,arent really thr for me .
cause ,i thought they were real .
but i guess im totally wrong .
take me for stuffs that they want .
and worst ,throw when not needed .
by one look at their faces ,i can perfectly know .
well ,it is all clear to me now .
im th bad one .
okayy done .
tanak jiwang.jiwang sgat uhh .

hahaa .
kay so now currently chatting with old friends .
nothing much that i can do .
well.well .
kayy laa ,nak surf.surf .
bye seme yg naa bace ,mcam adr gytu .
haha .
kay best bye .

larutan malam aku menanti
baru kini kau kembali

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nab[3]beyla[0]rh[3] blogged at11:39:00 PM

ιf уσύ ζόνέ ѕомзоие ζєτ ιτ gο.
ιf ιτ cοмξѕ ваcк, ιτѕ fοяэνєя уόύяѕ.